Rocky's Blog

One year later I returned to Pittsburgh Pennsylvania to complete my plastic surgery operations with a full Lower Body Lift. This was the second major surgery that removed a combined, 40 pounds of excess skin from a total weight loss of 400 pounds. At 23 years I am trying to still create a normal looking body from what was once a huge, ugly person weighing over 560 pounds. With each major plastic surgery operation I am getting closer and closer to appearance I can accept. I have given up on an appearance society can accept, because no matter how hard I try they are always displeased. They stared and laughed at me for being fat, they stared and laughed at me for having excess skin and they look shocked and puzzled at me now for my scars. It’s easy to fall back into a negative cycle of thinking and living alone in my room again. I can look at my scars in two ways, disgust and fear people will freak out when they see it, or as if I am a survivor given a second chance to live. This is my second chance at life, and I am going to live it! We have to help ourselves, kids especially (that’s when my ideal of comfort, living and beauty was distorted) realize that society’s ideal of beauty is unattainable and once a person realizes that beauty truly is how you feel about yourself, the quest will end. Second major surgery a success, excess skin from my chest, arms, back, stomach, inner thighs and rear have been removed. I have a normal looking body now, toned, defined and I have abs on the way. It’s often so unreal for me to comprehend. But the body is a reward for living at peace with my mind. Because when I tried to chase the “beauty” every single diet failed. However when I started living at peace with my mind, the “beauty” came.  On the road to recovery now and thinking about life and our purpose as humans to love and respect each other blind from religion, skin color, race, ethnicity, orientation etc. Love you all, and hope we continue to inspire each other to want to live a happy life with one another.